A New Beginning or Tragic Ending?

As breaks end, new semesters begin. An unending cycle for approximately 3 years then a new cycle begins consisting of 5 days a week from 9-5. Anyways, step by step. First day of Uni is tomorrow. I'm half excited and half scared out of my mind. Being slightly traumatised from my previous semester (didn't do so well for my assignments, became a sloth, screwed up in general), I'm hoping that this semester will be better. No doubt there will be downturns but at least overall, I'm hoping for better.

I have no idea what this semester entails. Yes, the subjects are more to my liking, but how will the assignments be?, will I be able to keep up with 4 core subjects?. In addition to that, this semester requires me to start looking into internships for next semester. To be honest, that's what scares me the most. I get very anxious during one-on-one interviews. I start talking really fast, stuttering as I speak. How do I stay calm, collected and professional? I suppose that will be my biggest struggle this time around. I'm trying a few things to calm myself, including meditation which I always said was rubbish whenever my mother mentioned it to me. Being stubborn as I am, I'm still not admitting that it works, but I feel my that my anxiety is getting worse especially after my little panic attack back in December last year. I will try ANYTHING (except drugs).

But yea... these are just some of the thoughts running through my mind right now. Hopefully a good nights sleep will cure me or I'll just continue to overthink and ruin my sleeping schedule. I've decided to just go with the flow of things and take this semester one step at a time no matter how overwhelmed I feel.

That will be all I guess. Wish me luck for tomorrow and pray that I don't screw up this semester :)