2019, Turning 22, Life.

One year gone yet again in the blink of an eye. I can barely recall all the things that have happened throughout the year. Some were good, some were fun and some were just downright disastrous. I've learnt many things in 2018, some of them being not to take things for granted, people who you call 'friends' can stir up drama with you as easily as a snap of a finger, and that good things last only if you keep putting in the effort. I struggled the most during my first semester of year 2. It hit me that being consistent in my work is important. At first, I thought I was doing all right since my track record so far has been satisfactory but in the end when marks started to flood out, I realised that I was slacking behind everyone else. I have no one to blame but myself. I thought the effort I put in was enough but then I thought back to all the times I put my leisure above my studies. Used relaxation as an excuse for coping with stress I was going under. I let myself deteriorate. I see that now and that is something that I'm glad I went through because now I know how to learn from that mistake and strive to become more focused this year.

This year I really want to change my life around. I only have 7 more months before I turn 22 but I have to act 22 already. I want to try to leave the childishness behind whilst still remembering to be childlike in some ways. I don't want to look at things too seriously or be so caught up in my life that I forget about the people around me. I want to have balance. I think that's the most important thing. I've set a few goals for myself to achieve this year and I hope I stick to them. I do get distracted easily and tend to procrastinate the things I plan to do. That will be a struggle for me but I believe that I can do it. I don't only want to be more focused this year, I want to be healthier and make sure I eat a better diet and get the exercise I need. In 2018, I have had the bad habit of waking up late and feeling so lethargic I don't bother doing anything productive throughout the rest of the day. I claimed to be "unmotivated" when in truth I was just plain lazy. I'm usually not the type of person that says "positive vibes only" but I think 2019 is the year I become that person. It feels like a good, fresh start and I don't think I have been this excited for a new year since I was a little kid. No time like the present to start feeling like your life needs a bit of change. To that, I want to wish myself and everyone of you out there good luck for the new year and whatever you set out to do, I hope you accomplish it! :)