Whatever Happened To Saturday Nights?

If you've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show you probably get the reference haha... But, that is not what I'm here to talk about today. Today my dear friends, I want to talk to you guys about my day, how I've been feeling and what's been happening.

8.20 p.m.

Have you ever just sat by yourself in the dark contemplating endless scenarios in your life. What you should have done or what you could've done better. Have you ever just felt like the world was crumbling around you but you weren't allowed to crumble with it because you needed to keep your shit together? Well yea, that pretty much sums up what I'm feeling. Ever since I started this semester (it's only been the first week btw), All I've been doing is jotting things I need to do and plan my assignments that are only due in November. I feel like there's no space for me to just breathe and take moment to digest things but if I stop for just a minute everything might fall apart. There's no more room for error from this year onwards and that's scary because I'm not sure if my best is good enough. Being put out of my comfort zone for some of the assignments makes me even more uncertain of my capabilities. If I make one mistake, JUST ONE, I can kiss my first class honours goodbye.

When did life get so complicated? When did a university degree start to matter so much that people spend millions on it and yet still feel like they've accomplished nothing? I guess if you're one of the lucky ones, everything and all that money spent would be worth it but what about the rest of us? What is even the true goal here? To get a job with a high salary so we can live the life that we think we want but may not need? Our society is so caught up with having money and flaunting wealth as if it's actually that significant. But then again, what is the end game of all of this trying and effort? We all are bound to die one day. Are you hoping that someone will remember you? That someone will keep you on your pedestal even when you're gone? Stop living life like it's a race to the finish. Take time to actually see the things, the people around you. Yea, not everyone is the same which makes us so unique, so don't go around passing judgements and promoting your way of looking at the world as if it's the ONLY way. People need to decide for themselves and should not get any single judgement about their decisions because at the end of the day, no one knows who's actually right.

I'm sorry for all this rambling, I just needed an outlet to express my thoughts, If you have ever felt the same way, now you know you're not the only one :) Take a break, look out and see the world, maybe you'll start to see that something other than fame and fortune awaits you. Well, I've got to face reality and continue to study. That will be all from me for now. Till then, goodbye, good luck and have a great weekend!

* Also, this was what I had for dinner today haha. Keeping it healthy!! (made the wraps myself :D)